An Open Letter to Glenn Beck

Dear Glenn,

Friday night I wrote a blog post asking my readers to watch your show this evening. I didn’t know what you were going to say. I just knew that God wanted me to share that message. I shared with you what I had written and you replied to me. You said the kindest things about my faith. That alone is a story that I will tell for the rest of my life. It meant so much to me.

This morning I watched the radio program and listened as you gave teasers about what this evening’s show was going to be about. Let’s be honest, it made me extremely nervous. I don’t know that I could have been more nervous if I had actually been on TV with you. I had put myself out there only on faith in God that your message was going to be important.

I was sick to my stomach all day waiting for your show to begin. But at five o’clock as you began to speak, I felt completely at peace. I’m not sure you were more than four or five sentences in before I knew you were going to share about your health.

What an amazing and terrifying story.

I could relate to so much of your journey for I have a similar one. I started having health problems at 19. I started having dizzy spells which would cause me to fall. I had such horrible headaches, and I started having terrifying problems with my eyesight. I was originally diagnosed with an earache and put on medication that caused my heart to race so fast I thought I was going to die.

Eventually I was diagnosed with a rare condition called Psuedotumor Cerebri, a fake brain tumor. It’s hard to diagnose because my body behaved as if I had a brain tumor but there was no tumor in my head. Over a period of eight or so years, my symptoms would come and go.

You told tonight about a doctor telling you that it was your faith in God alone that caused you to be able to get out of bed. During my last flair up, my doctor told me that there was so much pressure inside my head he had no idea how I was able to stand or see. He was sure that there would be lasting, permanent damage to my eyesight.

I went through the treatment, again. There was a lot of prayer during this time. We prayed not only for me to be well but also for me to be healed. I did become well and my doctor was amazed that I had no issues with my eyes. I remember clearly him telling me that if I had walked into his office for the first time that day he would have no idea I ever had Psuedotumor Cerebri, an uncurable disease.

My journey was much different from yours but so very similar. God truly performs miracles still today.

I remember those times when your programs changed. I remember how odd I thought it was at the time. I remember wondering what was going on. I never thought that you didn’t care anymore. I knew there had to be more to the story than what I had. There was a couple of times I would change the channel or just turn the TV off, but I kept coming back because I knew that whatever was going on it was important.

The message of love is such an important one. It feels as if so much of the world has forgotten that we need to love one another. And sometimes I wonder if people have forgotten what it means to love. Loving someone isn’t always agreeing with them. Love isn’t even always liking someone. Jesus told us to love one another. He never said we had to agree or even like each other as long as we love each other.

Loving someone means wanting the best for them. It is possible to love those you dislike or that dislike you. That is a message that you have been spreading. I love every time someone comes at you with anger or dislike for what they believe you are and you respond with love and kindness, to the point where you even tell them you love them. And mean it. How amazing would the world be in everyone responded like that?

I’m very excited about the stories you’re going to share with us. Man in the Moon was an amazing story. I was disappointed that we were unable to see it live but so happy when you shared it on TV. Not only did I love it, but my four-year old son asks to watch it on a regular basis, and in fact, he got mad at me tonight when I said it was bedtime and he would have to watch it tomorrow. I know you will share stories that I can share with my boys.

I am so excited for our journey forward from here. I am excited to set the world on fire with love and kindness and hope with you. It feels as if so many are feeling as if they are without hope. Hope is an amazing thing and is what keeps us moving forward rather than crumbling under the pressures the world.

In my blog, I try to write about my real life. I’ve talked about the physical and emotional hurts I’ve gone through. I’ve told of hard days I’ve had. Yesterday I wrote about how grouchy I was for absolutely no good reason. And although my audience is so very much smaller than yours, I believe you are right that, regardless of the size, audiences connect when we share the truth rather than just the best of the best.

I told my readers on Friday that I had no idea why God wanted me to share with them that they should watch your show tonight. Sitting here tonight, I don’t know how your show affected them, but I know how it affected me. I know I’m supposed to be doing something. I believe I’m right where I’m supposed to be. This is going to be amazing. God is doing amazing things and I’m thankful for my little part in His big plan.

Thank you for sharing your story with us.

#LetsTellOurStory

When God Speaks to Us

I believe that God speaks to us all, all the time. It’s just a matter of if we are listening to Him or not. And when we listen to Him amazing things happen.  We may not always see the results, but the results are always for His good.

Last night I wrote a post. It wasn’t at all what I wanted to write or had planned on writing. I felt God telling me that it was the right thing to do, even if it made me sick to my stomach nervous as I was writing it. Pressing the publish button was one of the scariest things I’ve ever done. It was right up there with walking up stairs you can see through.

And an amazing thing happened. People read my words. Lots of people. Today I had more individual people read my blog that I had views on my best day before today. I have almost doubled the amount of views I had on my best day. And yes for big blogs my statistics aren’t impressive, but for my little blog they are unbelievable.

God spoke to me, and I listened. And all those people who read my words that normally don’t, who looked at my older posts, maybe God spoke to you, too, through me. And that is amazing.

And as amazing as all the readers are, something else equally as amazing happened to me. I shared what I had written on one of Glenn Beck’s Facebook posts. Like writing the post, I wasn’t sure why I was supposed to share with him what I had written. I just knew that I was supposed to. And not only did Glenn read it, he responded to me.  He said, “Rachel, your faith brings a tear to my eye. You are brave. Not unafraid. It is important for people to know that when you do things like that your human side kicks in and you are really afraid. But the better half is stronger. Your spiritual side is at such peace.”

How amazing to me that my faith would touch others. And maybe that’s the purpose of this blog. I write what’s in my heart. Sometimes I don’t understand it and those posts seem to reach the most people and mean the most.

God is talking to us all. We just have to choose to listen to Him. And it seems to me that the times where it makes the least sense, it has the most benefits.  It doesn’t have to make sense to us. It’s all part of the big plan.

And maybe Glenn said it best. Being brave isn’t the same as being unafraid. Being brave is when we do the things that make us afraid.

Be brave. Listen to God’s voice.

God Told Me To

I’m a little confused about what I’m about to write. I’ve tried to be careful up to this point to keep my political view points fairly vague. I’m obviously a Libertarian, but I don’t talk about most politics or what radio and TV stations I watch. That’s all about to change.

Today is a strange day. I have a post that’s 90% finished that I thought I was posting today. Before I could finish it, the boys and I had to leave the house and we’ve been on the road all day until right now. And suddenly I knew that the post I was working on was not right. This is what I’m supposed to tell you.

I’m about to use a name that is going to create emotions inside you. And I’m going to ask that no matter the emotion it creates you will trust me and give me the benefit of the doubt. I’m going to ask that you will trust me if you’ve read this blog before, and I’m going to ask you to trust that this blog at this moment is where God wants you to be.

If you read my last post, you know that I am confused by the world we live in. I don’t understand most of what’s happening around us. Some times I honestly wonder if we are in the end times. I don’t know what God’s plan is for me or for you. All I know for sure right now is that I’m suppose to share with my handful of readers what I’m about to write.

I am a Christian. I am a Libertarian. I listen to Glenn Beck more often than I don’t.

I  warned you. I pray you are still reading.

I just used a name that inflicts more emotion than when I use the name of God. And if you only know what you know about Glenn because you’ve heard others talk about him, I’m going to ask you to trust me. Or if not trust me, to trust that you and I are both exactly where He needs us to be right now.

Something is happening. If you are paying attention you can see God moving around us. I’m not sure what it is. I’m not sure anyone on this side of Heaven knows for sure. The only thing I know for sure right is that I’m suppose to say what I’m about to say.

I do not know why, but I’m going to ask you that on Monday you will watch the Blaze TV channel from 5 to 7 pm. If you have Dish Network you can watch for free on channel 202. If you don’t have the Blaze TV, you can go to theblazetv.com on Monday and it is super free. You don’t even have to give them your email address to watch it.

God is doing a great work and apparently it’s important to that great work that we watch on Monday. I can’t explain it to you. I would just ask that you trust God and these words that He gave me.

And maybe even in Monday I won’t understand these words that I wrote. Maybe even then I won’t understand why I asked you to watch or what His big plan is. Right now the only thing I know for sure is that I was supposed to ask you to do this and that I will be watching and listening for Him on Monday.

I do not know what is going to be shared on Monday. All I know is that it is important enough that these words flew out of me. This is the fastest, easiest, most confusing words I’ve ever put here.

Maybe Monday evening we can meet back here and understand it. Maybe we will never understand it on this side of Heaven. I’m asking for two hours of your life. I hope you’ll give me that much, even if I don’t know why.